What a week...

And it's only Monday. Okay, so today was unusually depressing, though I'm not incredibly depressed like I was the other day. I'm more introspective I suppose.

When I got to my first music class today, the mood was obviously very different. I knew then that Brenda was definetly right. So, I heard the same depressing story 2 or 3 times today. It's really sad to me that someone so young would die from a heart attack. The saddest part, however, is that his 11-month-old daughter will never know her daddy.

Next, I heard about Michelle this afternoon. Again, it's sad that someone so young had to die of natural causes. It's just not fair. I know, life's not fair. Neither is death. Again the saddest part is that the kids who had already been through so much, now have to deal with more.

I know that good will come of both of these circumstances, but right now it's just about impossible to look at that.

Life is scary, I've decided. We talked about what we thought heaven would be like a week or so ago, and I said I thought the best part would be that we didn't have to worry about losing the ones we love... I still think that. My biggest fear is losing one of you.