When everything looks pretty...

It's easy to think you've found the way. Especially when things are going your way. They're really looking up. It's too bad that's when you begin to lose sight of the truth.

Sorry... just a semi-random thought. It is easy though, when things are great, to feel so secure that you don't even know when the bottom falls out.

I've recently made the decision to stop lying to myself, at least about the things I realize that I'm lying about. I can't live in denial of my problems, shortcomings, or whatever they are... neither of those words really fit.

I don't know when I stopped knowing who I was. I suppose it was when I became aware of the gray area. When I stopped having a favorite flavor of ice cream, and I started liking all the colors mixed together better than just purple. Options aren't always a great thing. They make things a lot harder. What'd I'd give to see in black and white again...

If you're a rose, then I'm the thorn that's in your side. There's something in my way, and it's all mine to deal with. I just feel safer with it there. But safety is stupid. I despise it in every other aspect. Why do I crave it here?

Sorry, this really is random and completely rhetorical. I really shouldn't post things like this.

I must agree that when I'm looking at the stars is when I feel most like myself. There's something renewing about being reminded that you're nothing... odd, I know.

I have to stop this whole thinking thing... it doesn't do anybody any good. :)

I watched Elizabethtown tonight... weird movie all around, but not bad. My parents thought it was the stupidest thing they'd ever slept thru, but then again, they didn't get it. They didn't try. It actually said a lot to me. I won't describe it, cuz I don't want to ruin it for anybody who might ever see it... not that more than 2 people even read this. :) But anyway, if you're up for things you have to think about a little, and a little cheesy romance, it's not bad. You could pretty much do without the whole first hour though.

I'm pretty sure "Just Like Heaven" is going on my list of favorites, along with "You've Got Mail" and other cheesy chick flicks. My taste is movies is pathetic, but at least I'm willing to admit it. :)

Well, I should go to bed. I despise the whole "work" at 8 o'clock in the morning thing. Even if that does mean I'll go do my math and philosophy homework... neither of which I ever have to do, but I will just to kill the time. If I'm so lucky as to get the computer, I might even be up to another post... but less than 12 hours after this one... I don't know... that's pushin' it.

Know what's stupid? That you can't change the time on here anymore. Cuz it never says the real time. It's usually close, but it really annoys me that it can't be exact. Oh well.

Sorry. G'night :)