I'm freezing...
So that doesn't make such a great title... it's entirely true though. I haven't been warm for like 3 hours. Oh well.
So I'm quickly losing my sanity. No matter what I do, I will never have these kids' respect. I don't know what I did to lose it, but they don't care a bit about what I do or ask them to do. Sorry, I'm venting. I'm just not cut out for this I guess. Not right now anyway. Sorry, it's just frustrating, and my mom doesn't help any cuz she thinks that because this is Grandma's house they should get away with everything. Like I told her Julie said Grace should go to bed pretty early cuz she was up really late last night... the kid's been grumpy for about 5 hours now, and my mom's down there feeding her ice cream or something. Grrr. She must have been different with me, cuz I never got that kind of treatment. Oh well... there's a reason I'm shut in my room.
Now that that's out of my system, at least mostly: .... I'm out of things to say. I guess I could say that Spring Break is kind of stupid, in my opinion. If you don't go on a trip, you're stuck for a week at home with absolutely nothing to do. And all it accomplishes in the end is making you want school to be out sooner. I used to not like that we were the only ones who didn't get Spring Break... now I understand. The days out are much more valuable if they're few and far between. I lived them more fully then, I guess you could say. Again... oh well.
Now she's down there playing a game with them. Grrrrrrrrrrr! I feel like everything I told them earlier is being undermined... no wonder they don't listen to a word I say.
Obviously I'm in a negative mood. I should really stop writing then, because I think the more I think about it, the worse I get.
Oh, I have to talk about the book I just finished though. It was incredibly weird. All the books this guy has written have been weird, but this one just topped them all. It's called Showdown, and as with his others, it's about the "battle" between good and evil. I can't even explain it... it's just incredibly twisted. Yeah... I'm trying to think of a way to explain it, but I just can't. It's not technically part of the series, but it ties in a lot with the Circle trilogy: Red, White, and Black. I'm pretty sure it's even more twisted than those. It's another one that will make you do some serious thinking though... I think that's why I like them. There's one coming out soon that he's writing with Frank Peretti... I can't even imagine what it's going to be like. Peretti books are just as crazy, if not more, and the two of them together... yeah.
Okay, I'll be done with that. I know, nobody has any idea what I'm talking about. It works for me that way though.
Well, I think maybe I've calmed down a bit now... maybe to the point that I don't have to be shut in here anymore... but maybe not. I really need to start on some of my homework, but I really don't want to. This is why I think Spring Break is bad... it makes me not want to do anything.
I don't know what I'm gonna do this summer. If the last few days have been any indication, I'm going to become a severely depressed couch potato. Having nothing to do is really bad for me. I would get a job, but then I couldn't get off for kids' camps and stuff. Idk... nothing really works out to where I could just randomly take weeks off at at time. So for the most part, I fear I'm going to be bored, broke, and fat. Fat because I eat when I'm bored. Oh well. I should take summer school. Nope, nevermind, can't take weeks off from that either. I think I have my priorities in the right order, but sometimes I wonder.
Well, okay, all of this is beginning to lead to more thinking, and I don't want to go there. I think I'll quit while I'm ahead... or at least not too far behind.
So I'm quickly losing my sanity. No matter what I do, I will never have these kids' respect. I don't know what I did to lose it, but they don't care a bit about what I do or ask them to do. Sorry, I'm venting. I'm just not cut out for this I guess. Not right now anyway. Sorry, it's just frustrating, and my mom doesn't help any cuz she thinks that because this is Grandma's house they should get away with everything. Like I told her Julie said Grace should go to bed pretty early cuz she was up really late last night... the kid's been grumpy for about 5 hours now, and my mom's down there feeding her ice cream or something. Grrr. She must have been different with me, cuz I never got that kind of treatment. Oh well... there's a reason I'm shut in my room.
Now that that's out of my system, at least mostly: .... I'm out of things to say. I guess I could say that Spring Break is kind of stupid, in my opinion. If you don't go on a trip, you're stuck for a week at home with absolutely nothing to do. And all it accomplishes in the end is making you want school to be out sooner. I used to not like that we were the only ones who didn't get Spring Break... now I understand. The days out are much more valuable if they're few and far between. I lived them more fully then, I guess you could say. Again... oh well.
Now she's down there playing a game with them. Grrrrrrrrrrr! I feel like everything I told them earlier is being undermined... no wonder they don't listen to a word I say.
Obviously I'm in a negative mood. I should really stop writing then, because I think the more I think about it, the worse I get.
Oh, I have to talk about the book I just finished though. It was incredibly weird. All the books this guy has written have been weird, but this one just topped them all. It's called Showdown, and as with his others, it's about the "battle" between good and evil. I can't even explain it... it's just incredibly twisted. Yeah... I'm trying to think of a way to explain it, but I just can't. It's not technically part of the series, but it ties in a lot with the Circle trilogy: Red, White, and Black. I'm pretty sure it's even more twisted than those. It's another one that will make you do some serious thinking though... I think that's why I like them. There's one coming out soon that he's writing with Frank Peretti... I can't even imagine what it's going to be like. Peretti books are just as crazy, if not more, and the two of them together... yeah.
Okay, I'll be done with that. I know, nobody has any idea what I'm talking about. It works for me that way though.
Well, I think maybe I've calmed down a bit now... maybe to the point that I don't have to be shut in here anymore... but maybe not. I really need to start on some of my homework, but I really don't want to. This is why I think Spring Break is bad... it makes me not want to do anything.
I don't know what I'm gonna do this summer. If the last few days have been any indication, I'm going to become a severely depressed couch potato. Having nothing to do is really bad for me. I would get a job, but then I couldn't get off for kids' camps and stuff. Idk... nothing really works out to where I could just randomly take weeks off at at time. So for the most part, I fear I'm going to be bored, broke, and fat. Fat because I eat when I'm bored. Oh well. I should take summer school. Nope, nevermind, can't take weeks off from that either. I think I have my priorities in the right order, but sometimes I wonder.
Well, okay, all of this is beginning to lead to more thinking, and I don't want to go there. I think I'll quit while I'm ahead... or at least not too far behind.
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