I hate school...

I shouldn't say things like that, cuz I really don't hate school. I really only hate Wednesdays, I think, as I have 5 classes in a row, then a break and a 2-hour class. It makes the day incredibly long, and by the time I get home, I'm bound to be grouchy. Tonight this is compounded by the fact that I got all confused as to what was going on at church, and then because my submit button on my homepage wouldn't work, so I have no idea whether it actually posted or not. I guess we'll soon find out.

Anyway, I'm going to try to be positive here, which you all know will happen about the time you-know-where freezes over. Maybe it's a cold night though... if I try really hard. Hmmm... things I like... this is starting to sound like Jo's happy list. Maybe there's something to be said for that afterall. :)

Woohoo for Howie Day to begin with. :) This song makes me happier, so I'm pretty sure it's going on repeat for a while.

Now I'm pretty much out of things to say.

I am ready for a card game I think, now that I think about it. I'm feelin' some Spades or Hearts comin' on... I'm thinkin' Hearts for Nick.

Okay, so the song's not gonna stay on repeat, because I have trouble thinking about what I'm writing when there's music going. I'm trying to be inspired by it though, cuz I'm out of things to say. If not, this is quickly going to become one of those incredibly random stream-of-consciousness posts. I don't know though, I kinda like those.

Dr. Jackson, the science guy, likes to cuss a lot in class. I find all of this amusing, as the teachers have never been allowed to be negative before, let alone curse during their lectures. Sorry, random thought.

Hmmm... I really don't know what else to talk about.

I guess I should say that, contrary to the title of this post, I actually like school. It's more fun than high school, at least so far. I just hate Wednesdays. The other days are seriously not bad. I think I'm getting burned out already though. Come to think of it though, I have gone to school now 7 days in a row. It's time for a weekend, definetly.

I really like Tuesdays and Thursdays, cuz I'm done by 12:15. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna like Fridays okay, though I haven't had one yet, cuz I don't have to get there til 10. Yay for extra sleep.

I was really excited about band to begin with, but it's almost become more of a hassle now than it's worth. I'm still really worried about being able to memorize all the music and learn how to do the marching stuff. I feel really intimidated now in all my music classes. Everybody there is so stinkin' talented, and then there's me. Oh well, as long as I never have to do anything by myself, they'll never know how pathetic I am. Oops, I'm supposed to be positive.

I'm gonna make myself get my music minor though, no matter how much I hate it, cuz if I don't, I'll regret it. That does mean I have to do some stuff by myself unfortunately though. I have to have 2 semesters of private lessons for one thing.

Gosh darn it, this positive thing is complicated. I start thinkin' about this stuff that's got me worried or whatever and it gets impossible again. GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I like having Renee in all my music classes, but I'm actually starting to get intimidated even by her. Imagine that. I'm not sure intimidated is quite the right word, I'm just not as into it as she is. I feel bad about that. What's happened to me enjoying it so much? I was so excited, and now I'm just not. It's frustrating. You shouldn't be able to just get over something you've always loved so much.

Okay, maybe I have some of it figured out. It's all too formal for me there. I still love it... at church, sitting around singing songs and such, leading worship... things that don't have to be so stinkin' perfect. Music shouldn't have to be this way. It's not restrained by breathing and pronunciations... it's all about what's behind it. Okay, college music is crap. :) Wow, I feel better now.

That's seriously been bugging me a lot and I didn't even realize it. Now it gets to bug me again, cuz I still have to pass all my classes... and I'm still forcing myself to endure it to a minor.

It's funny how my opinion changes on stuff so fast. Like a year ago, I was all ready to spend my life in band and choir... now I can't wait to get out. I don't like when my music is repressed. It's that simple. I still like playing in band and singing in choir though, so I don't think I really know what I want. Oh well. I just want more freedom in my music, and I want to be the senior again. Being a freshman is no fun, cuz they all think you're stupid. To an extent, they're absolutely right.

I'm going to get off of this little tangent now, because I am being pressured to do so:)

I'm finally getting really sleepy again I think... or maybe that's just cuz the adrenaline of being all upset is wearing off.

I'm really not sure how this whole school thing is going to work out. I'm not sure I'm smart enough to be in the Honors Program. What am I saying... that's the part I actually like so far.

I'm feeling kind of stressed already, so I'm scared of what's going to happen when classes actually start to get serious. That kinda worries me. I guess we'll just find out.

Well, I'm going to rap this up. One, because Nick is annoying, and two, because I am sleepy. :) G'night to all, and enjoy whatever it is you do...

School Starts Tomorrow...

I'm not ready for it to start now. I've been all ready for like the last 2 weeks, but now I'm not. Oh well, I guess I'll get ready fast. Like in the next 10 hours or so.

Campus Crawl was alright. I was amazed by the number of people I knew/recognized. It was crazy. It made me want to live on campus even more than I already did though. I'm looking into the scholarships/grants I might be able to try for next semester.

Hmmm... I can't think of anything else to say. I'm not in a creative mood tonight.

I need to figure out what I'm going to major in. I was looking through the catalog, and for almost everything you start certain classes your freshman year. I'm gonna be there a long, long time if I keep this up. Sorry, that's just stressing me a bit.

Hmmm... I wonder what would happen if I just started typing random words. I'm pretty sure it is physically impossible for me to write something that is illogical. I don't think I could just type random words if I wanted to. At the very least, they'd be related one way or another.

Let's try it... cat dog bird fish sealion otter whale shark dolphin giraffe monkey kangaroo computer software hmmm, brain stopped when I tried to be more random. music stereo cd tape tape player cd player elephant tiger lion bear oh my dorothy scarecrow tinman witch monkeys lion wizard munchkins uumpa loompas charlie chocolate willie wonka... k, 'm done with that, but I have proven that it is impossible for my mind to be completely random. Everything leads to something in some semi-logical way.

Well, that was the epitome of boredom, so I think I should be done with this post. I'll see you all soon. Good night, and good hmmm... something.

Rain depresses me...

Seriously, I'm not kidding. I'm pretty sure I have that weather disorder. Winter also depresses me. Or maybe it's just when things don't change enough for me. I'm pretty sure even summer could depress me if it stayed the same too long.

Anyway, enough of that. Being bored depresses me most. I feel unproductive and fat cuz I don't do anything useful. Oh well.

Enough of that, and I mean it this time.

So let's see... this post is inspired by the simple fact that Nick posted again, for the first time since April.

I have a headache.

Hmmm... I think I'm still excited for school to start, cuz it will give me a schedule and something to do every day. Yay!!!!

It's not looking good though, that I already have big conflicts between honor's stuff and band. Oh well, I guess it will all work out in the long run, we can hope.

I haven't thought much about it, but I'm excited about choir too. I can't wait to sing in a big, good choir. I've honestly never gotten to do that before. It's gonna be great. :)

I'm hungry.

Course I may get to the "good" choir and they tell me to leave. I was good where I came from, but I'm not stupid. I won't be good there. I'll be average at best. Oh well, it'll still be fun.

I'm also really excited about musical theatre. It's gonna be great fun. I love that stuff. I'm hoping we get to do lots of shows and stuff.

Hey, this is becoming a pretty lengthy post compared to other recent ones. I'm proud of myself. :)

I'm getting really hungry. I need a snack, but I'm not gonna go get one. I'm just gonna go to sleep eventually.

I'm wearing socks and my feet are still freezing. This is silly. It's not even cold in here.

I think I might finally be running out of things to say... I think.

Yay for college.

G'night all. :)

Yippee!!!

I have no idea what that was about. I'm excited about something. School, sadly enough I think.

Anyway, I am very hyper at the moment, and there is no where to go and nobody to see. The one night I'm feeling sociable... I guess that's my fault, huh.

I'm excited about my new chair. I cleaned my room like crazy the other day, you know, so now I have room for a chair that I'm going to use to study. I got one of those fun round ones that only Jo has a name for, and one I can't pronounce at that. The package says it's a mushroom chair. Now that I can say. Anyway, it's beige and kinda suedeish. It's very fun, and when I need space, I can fold it up.

I also got a phone line splitter so I can now have both computers and my phone plugged in at once. I somehow doubt that will ever be necessary. I really don't understand how both computers can be on the internet when you can't have two different phone conversations at the same time... one of those things I'll never understand, I guess.

Wow, I still have a whole lot of energy. There's a good chance that this will either be a late night, or I'll get really sleepy here pretty soon and that will be the end of it. That's usually how these things work.

I was very excited that somebody read and commented on my blog, Jo. It made me happy. I don't feel like this is quite as pointless anymore, which is why this is turning into a very long entry. Yippee for you. :)

I wanna go to school. In about 2 weeks I'm going to regret even thinking that.

Know what would make me really happy? A dang quesadilla party. :)

Well, I gotta go for now cuz my MSN wants everything else closed while it installs. I'll probly post on the other one later, but maybe not. Buh bye! :)

Hmmm...

Well, I'm finally making a post for no one to read. I'm going to quit posting on here altogether I think, cuz nobody reads it anymore. I'll just have to use the school one. I'm not sure why I'm making this post.

I think I just got out of the posting mood. Well, at least I posted.

I will say that I am excited about school starting, I think because of my computer and my backpack... seriously. :)

Well, I'm gettin' really sleepy, so I'll talk to y'all (meaning nobody) later. G'night. :)